Challenges On Roads I’ve Chosen

why is it that everything i do is just totally wrong? i mean, why can people be so mean to me? why can they do so much towards me but just pretend like nothing happened yet i’m the one end up feeling the pain inside? why? how can this actually be happening? life is never said to be fair but i hope it will be this time.

i dont know.. i dont know anything.. but all i know is i’m always creating nothing but problems. and to the YOU –you know who you are, can you please tell me what’s wrong? or at least let me know how are you doing? i dont even know if you’re dead or alive.. sigh please dont do this to me.. i’m sorry if i couldnt give you what you wished for but you dont have to do this to me right? you said you would be happy for me if i was happy, you promised to be there for me when i need you, you promised to protect me so i wouldnt get bullied but now where are you? i might have found someone else –atleast i think, but that doesnt mean i dont need you anymore.. every person plays a different role in life, so are you. you’re like a puzzle of my heart that’s now missing, i cant even remember where i’ve last saw it and i dont have a clue whether it’s been stolen or gone forever.. please i know you’re there, somewhere, out there.. so just please speak to me one last time and i’ll leave you in peace, you’ll never hear a word from me ever again. anyway, all those mails, messages and everything doesnt seem to work.. you’ve never done this to me, i wonder after all this while, why now? and all i hope now is for you to come in here and if you ever happen to see this, i just wanna wish you a very Happy Birthday, hope you’re having a blast with some other girl in your arms = ) till then, take care, bye.

(27.11.2005) are you the puzzle? yes, you are.

see, my days are cold without you

but i’m hurting while i’m with you

and i thought my heart cant take no more

i keep on running back to you

baby, i dont know why you treat me so bad

you said you love me, no one above me and i was all you had

and tho my heart is eating for you, i cant stop crying

i dont know why i allow you to treat me this way

and i still stay

see, my days are cold without you

but i’m hurting while i’m with you

and i thought my heart cant take no more

i keep on running back to you

baby, i dont know why you wanna do me wrong

see, when i’m home, i’m all alone and you are always gone

boy, you know i really love you, i cant deny

i cant see how you can bring me to so many tears

after all these years

see, my days are cold without you

but i’m hurting while i’m with you

and i thought my heart cant take no more

i keep on running back to you

oh i just need you, i just need you

so sad, so sad, what love will make you do

all the things that we accept, be the things that we regret

so all of my ladies, feel me, come on sing with me

see when i get the strength to leave you

always tell me that you need me

and i’m weak cos i believe you and i’m mad because i love you

so i stop and think that maybe, you could learn and appreciate me

then it all remains the same that

you aint never gonna change, never gonna change, never gonna change

see, my days are cold without you

but i’m hurting while i’m with you

and i thought my heart cant take no more

i keep on running back to you

baby, why you hurt me, leave me and desert me

boy, i gave you all my heart and all you did was tear it up

looking out my window, knowing that i should go

even when i pack my bags, there’s something always holds me back

== this lyric is specially dedicated to.. you know who you are…