Challenges On Roads I’ve Chosen

tell me whats wrong with society? some are changing themselves for the sake of others. some are acting cool tho there’s a lump of shit right ahead of them. some just wont stop doing immature things like gossip and spreading stories around. when will all of this nightmare of mine stop? i dont know. i’ve did and tried every way i could, but it just cant. what matters now is the QUANTITY not QUALITY. yea, the ones who hates and dislikes me is much more than the ones who trust and accepts me for who i am. once again, it is all in your hands. i cant do anything. even if i had the powers to turn back time, i swear i wouldnt. if i did, i wouldnt know the TRUE colours of those showing them off now. it’s funny and weird at times to think, gosh.. i’m just a girl with low IQ, no beauty, no money, but maybe just my heart counts. while on the other hand.. she has everything. from appearance, brains, money, that so called "sweet-innocent-angel" personality when she’s around her friends, etc.. there goes her points. yet, it has been so obvious that she’s changing herself everyday into someone worst than i am. obviously in the personality sense. or is it just because she wants to be a bad bitchy girl like i am? black shirt, black pants, black nails, black eye liners.. ah just BLACK in bout EVERYTHING! including black HEART..? i’m not trying to say she cant do those stuff or neither am i saying she’s following my steps, but its just herself changing way too much till her friends are having question marks popping all over their mind. she used to be the quiet and shy girl, and now? i’m not quite sure, but words bout her and her boyfriend are spreading around. from holding hands in public, hugging all mushy in crowds, watching midnight movies one-on-one, getting home at 2am and proudly even admits lying to her mum bout things. what the heck is wrong with you??? that would be a normal thing to talk about a couple but not someone like you. you used to be highly respected by people, especially people like me. girl, you can do those stuff and be a cool chick but hey.. please, be alert and control yourself! but now, i’ve just no comments what else to say. i admit i do love him and he’s everything to me like he is to you. but it’s fine that you’ve made him crushed my heart into pieces. love can be BLIND but it cant be FORCED. i’ll accept the fact and i’ll get over it soon. i dont need any sympathy from anyone but i think you surely do. get a life, get a grip.