Archive for November, 2006

30
Nov

bad day

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28th november 2006. a day to remember for me and my friends. we had add maths that was totally.. *ah speechless* then one of our friends.. *silence* GOSH! it was just a terrible day…

currently listening to justin timberlake’s losing my way. nice song. uh i dont know what to blog bout.. kinda emo right now, guess am losing my way?

guys guys.. all sorts of guys in this big wideee but yet sometimes so small world. guys are different, i mean there are many different kinds of guys who are different in so many ways but at the end of the day.. only one in probably a billion is the not much of a nuinsance, dropped-from-heaven one. its funny to think a girl aged seventeen like me actually met and knew and even gone thru so many things as if am a 70 year old grandmother (or maybe greatgrandmother for some). yes, am still talking bout GUYS.

i’ve been wondering lately, why do i always feel guilty and cry endlessly when a relationship is called off. may it be me or the guy who called it off. may it be his fault or mine (rarely or maybe never before its truly my fault). but tears will just flow for nites for that certain guy. tho for some situation where i actually dint have any feelings for him. i just feel the total guilt in myself. is it just me or is there someonelse out there that feels the same? ok wait, i know what you want to say.. am just plain dumb and stewpid.

okay, dont wanna continue bout THAT anymore. but sigh, after witnessing what one of my friend been thru.. now i know i shouldnt be that stewpid anymore. so far, thats the worst case scenerio i’ve ever seen. the worst i’ve ever met. too private to blog.. dont wanna hurt her feelings.

alright.. gtg now.

ah moral paper tomorrow.. nights.

27
Nov

sighs over, add numbers

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the title actually meant science over and here comes additional maths. yeah. guess thats all for me to say? haha. well.. science was okay, i guess.

tomorrow will be add maths, ahhhh!!! feeling the pressure but no idea what to do. have been going out at the crack of dawn and getting back home after dark just to get some last minute tutoring from some kind hearted helpful friends.. thanks loads to their generousity in sacrificing some of their own preciooooous time for me! lol.

anyway, it was such a surprise that Damien called just now! from the public phone!! in birmingham!! AHAHA!!! gosh, what time is it over there?? me was all blur-blur so i was like "uh dam? dam who?" plus his accent.. made me even more blurer! lol. and yeah, its his burrrrrfday today! muuuuuuah! love ya so much darl! atleast he still remembers me rite? instead of me calling and wishing him, turned out to be the opposite.. haha. whats with me and the exclamation marks? whatever. well am really tired now.

nite. oh, another "event".. dad got missles. chao.

22
Nov

numb-burst

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its modern maths today but amazingly, it wasnt like how i thought it would be. paper one was okay, except that i dint manage to finish it all in time. so there wasnt any choice left but to just shade the answers blindly. for paper two, i had more than enough time and i sorta-kinda enjoyed myself too! haha. weird me rite? but not sure what i scribbled in there are correct or just simply bull crap. anyways, i did it. i’ve done it. it already happened. no turning back.

after the exams, went to Clarice’s place to do some stuff and since it was an unfortunate day for me. my diaper burst. dont understand, dont ask. hmph. then went for lunch with Roger. he was kind enough to take me visit Elisha aswell. aahhh.. shes so adooooorable! chubby and fairer too!! but i dont know why, when i got her in my arms, i suddenly got totally speechless. like i cant say what i want to say. and ohhh.. she sounds so cute too. you know those baby talk.. agu-agu agagaa.. my god!! am all jumping with excitement now. haha. but she really is such a lovely baby. will be an awesome hot pretty lady when she grows up and am gona be so proud to be her aunt! XD oh wait, am proud of her even now!

alright, am starting to feel totally not well now. headache, stomache, backache.. everywheres aching. am old alreeeeady. sigh.. what to do–> old-woman what. haha. guess there’ll be no studying for science then.

may god bless me with my general knowledge in science. thank you lord! gooooodnight.

21
Nov

his-story

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history are stuff that happened in the past rite? then why do we have to learn and force the so-called important facts into our minds? especially those long-weirdish names! damn. hate that. anyway, my essay paper for history of cos, once again got flushed down the toilet bowl. instead, the answers i wrote were like a whole bunch of brand new "History According To Nicole". and also for the first time, i walked out of the "hall" before the paper ends. yup, went back half an hour early. am gona flunk anyway, so who cares?

english on the other hand was.. easy? haha. cheh, sounds confident. XP have to admit, i love the essay part. i chose the one where we’re suppose to write; what changes would you like to see in yourself in the next ten years? well i think mine was kinda cool. wrote stuff and more stuff bout stuff. haha. it was fun! nice to write and passing up, not knowing who will be the marker. but i know there will be someone. lol. maybe for once this would be my one and only chance to score an A? XD A2 also i dont mind. not a freak who cares so much bout my grades anyway. well, its not like am going to some fancy-pency uni. maybe will, as the cafe lady? lmao!

and finally, the pathetic news ever: dads back.

doh. *crawls out*

20
Nov

twelve to go

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done the malay papers. paper one was quite okay except that got kinda stuck since all my ideas kept popping on my mind in english. how great uh? thats what you say, gerak balas tidak terkawal. translation: reactions that cant be controlled? lol.

the history paper made me all blur-blur. yeah. totally lost! its like i havent seen those questions ever before. well maybe just a couple of them. not a surprise anyway. people are all under pressure; studying, memorising so damn bloody hard but *wahey* am here. relaxing, stretching my back, blogging. gosh, am gona be the first to cry when the results are out! hmph. what to do. wanna study but suddenly having both pms cramps and swings. great. so coincidentally! good timing. why am i even a girl? dohs.

am crazy for typing such stuff in here right? whatsoever. cant exactly blame me eh. thats my life since i’ve no siblings to quarrel with, busy parents, no friends to share my thoughts with. so i spill in here. yeap, my blog. to those who are mumbling why are they even in here, this is for you: you’re in the wrong room. am i nuts for talking to this tv box sized screen? yeah maybe i am.

better stop now. till then.

18
Nov

horribleness

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the exams are on, first two papers was accounts. mine sucked. totally! well.. theres nothing i can do to turn back time. whatever the results may be, i’ll just have to accept it right? death is not a solution. anyway, i’d like to thank to both Clarice and Maple for giving me last minute "wake-up-sessions" on accounts, of cos. (am probably gona take pics of all my last-minute tutors and make a special album, whether i failed the subject or not is another story) think bout it, without that, i’d probably be passing up a blank answer sheet. uh i know for some, you might think accounts are like so damn bloody simple and how can i possibly say am at lost for it? the thing is that.. i dislike, oh i mean HATE anything that has to do with numbers. sooo not my type. not an excuse, but the fact!

uhmm.. the first paper was on thursday [16/11] but guess what? on the monday itself [13/11] i went to the Sagil’s Waterfall! lol. if none of you know where Sagil is, here’s the introduction: Sagil is somewhere near Johor, or more known as the Puteri Gunung Ledang place.. yeah, except we did not went all the way to the top, just probably quarter way? there were bout 10 of us (supposely an outing for the Kiwi team in Salvation, atleast i think?) but weehee i tagged along cos Roger invited me! XP it was an enjoyable and memorable one as i’ve never been such outings before. was a long way to climb all the way to the waterfall (lost one kg, but then gained three kgs later. lol.) the scenery at the top was beauuutiful! the breeze was so fresh, the surroundings were all greens and the water was clean (not exactly crystal clear tho, can see all those fungus.. eeks!) and oh it was freezing! the waterfall was awesome! its like a natural spa massage for your back. haha. toootaly awesome! *winks*

uh today was the last class for tuition, wore black baju kurung (malay traditional clothes for girls) suppose to be a so-called surprise but end up to be a memorable nightmare. (for me atleast) i was entering at the back entrance of the bakery shop to meet a few friends before class begins, but guess what? i slipped and fell on my knees. thank god only two guys were there. (their jaws dropped opened) but still.. it was damn embarassing! worst of all.. one of them was the one i.. kinda-sorta had a crush on *blush-blushes* damn! never took any pics at all cos was in total-shocked-of-embarrasment all day long.

right. am outta here. hmph.

10
Nov

remembering always

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was chucking my bags to the little dark corner of my room the other day when i came across my long lost diary that has been there probably for ages, collecting dusts! i used to write in diaries, thinking back and looking back at what i wrote, it was kinda childish >_<

heres a part of the so many pages that i found scribbled in there.. uh just feel like sharing? by the way, it was a conversation between me and a certain person. it begins with a short so-called story that probably some of you guys have heard of it before BUT look for the answer:-

" a guy was caught in between two girls that he claims to be the love of his life. one was his dearly girlfriend while the other was his *uh* friend. one day, all three of them went for a cruise on a boat. what no one expected was a sudden huge wave hitting the boat and the two girls at the deck, fell into the sea while the guy managed to hold himself to a pole."

me: lets say the sea was filled with some deadliest creatures and you were the guy. if you could only save one, who would you save? her, your girlfriend or me, someone you just claim to love?"

obviously he was in silence for a moment till there was a point where i almost wanted to give up on that question and just walk away but surprisingly, guess what he answered? here it goes…

"as i’ve said and as you know, i do love the both of you. this is a tough question but i’ll say.. i’ll save her."

yup, i was in disbelief. shocked. disappointed, not very tho. uhmm.. and everything you could picture. yeah.. i was holding my tears back too. BUT then he continued:

"i’ll save her but not you. but i’ll save her, then jump back into the sea to fight for your life. if you really couldnt make it, i’d hug you tightly in my arms and die together with you because i cant live without you."

aahhhhh… thats it! *sniff* *sniff* dudeeee! believe that or not? so damn bloody touching man. oh just for your info, that certain person was never with me now. of course la i back off.. well, we are better off as strangers. haha. chaoz!